The facility was furnished with toys, and therapists and rooms- all designed (I was told) to feed the minds of the brain injured- to nurse them back into the best condition possible. What the transferring hospital, social workers, and liaison for the facility failed to mention was that this hospital seemed to only be designed for the brain-injured. Not the brain injured who happened to also have multiple other conditions, like a life threatening blood clotting disorder...
But, I digress...
In between classes I had been spending day after exhausting day trying to communicate to the staff that in addition to care for a brain injury, my father also had to be watched for serious signs of a deep vein thrombosis. Swelling, leg pain, changes in temperature (skin temperature, not body temperature)- the fact that I had to actually explain the signs of a DVT to these medical staff exacerbated my dwindling faith in them and their abilities to care for my father...but what other choice did I have really? Take him home? Care for him on my own? Yeah, like that was even possible, let alone feasible.
I'm sorry college, career...life- but I have to take a short pit-stop in "I have no money or way of doing this- ville..." It just wasn't happening. Not to mention my father had no money coming in, social security had yet to go through, and I was, at best, making $150 a week...
My fear, apprehension and exhaustion was beginning to show in my homework as well. While I had managed to survive the first month of this ordeal and manage four classes at the near-by community college- it soon became evident that something needed to give. I was doing well in most of my classes, but I simply could not keep up with four classes any longer. I could not attend class 15 hours a week, spend equally as much time on homework, working part time and spend my nights and weekends in my father's hospital room- dealing with Recovery Scales and pulling tubes and infections and random screaming outbursts...it was just all too much.
So, I dropped one class- the only class I have ever in my life dropped- ironically enough it was biology. And, contrary to most cases, the college actually refunded my money when they had heard about the circumstances of my withdrawal. I was both relieved and saddened that my situation was in fact dire enough to warrant a full refund for my college course.
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It was a calm September day when I return to class after a very long and exhausting weekend at the rehabilitation facility. My father had been particularly draining and as I excited my English course I kept thinking it was going to be a miracle if I could stay awake for my twelve hour day of classes.
Today, as on most Tuesdays, I was meeting up with my boyfriend for brunch in between my English and Math courses. As I walked to my car I looked around the parking lot, oddly noticing that many other students seemed to be in their cars listening intently to the radio.
Hm, that's odd, I thought. Maybe there is something going on with sports or a concert coming to town...
I slide into my 1992 Ford Tempo and started the engine. As usual I had a Metallica CD already in the player and as "Master of Puppets" blared through my speakers I pulled out of the parking lot and headed to Big Boy or brunch.
"Hey there, baby cakes," Mike cooed as he came up and lifted me into the air in a giant bear hug.
"Hey," I said, slightly nauseated from not eating, "I'm starved, let's get a table."
As we slide into a booth in the back of the restaurant and began to look at the menu, Mike said, "So did you hear some pilot drove his plane into the World Trade Center?"
"What?" I said, half-confused, half in non-belief, Mike was famous for telling me things that were exaggerated at the least and a down-right lie at best, "What kind of idiot could miss the World Trade Center?" I said waving my hand dismissively and looking back down a the menu.
"No, no, seriously," Mike insisted, "some other plane also flew into the Pentagon."
"What the hell?" I said, still confused and not really sure of what I was hearing. It sounded too surreal, too major, to well...unbelievable.
Mike and I continued our brunch and hugged good-by in the parking lot. He departed for work and I headed back to the community college for my second class of the day.
As I pulled into the parking lot I noticed even more students listening, even more intently to their radios. I ejected Metallica from the CD player and began to listen.
"Reports are unsure at this time exactly what is behind all this..."
"We have confirmed reports that two planes did actually strike the World Trade Center and the buildings seem, at least at this moment to be holding strong..."
"A plane, landing near a large generators and in between construction trucks at the Pentagon..."
What the hell is going on?
I heard a loud noise as a plane from Selfridge Airforce Base, 5 miles away began to circle the sky.
I walk tentatively to my class and heard students talking, and crying and whispering as I approached the door. As I entered I saw the professor sitting on the desk explaining to the students, "the college is closing immediately, we are all told to dismiss our classes to be home with their families. It has been confirmed that two planes have struck the World Trade Center in New York and a third plane has touched down into the Pentagon..."
The professor looked around the room, concerned, scared, in disbelief..."go home to be with your families," he stated and walked out of the room.
I walked back to the parking lot stunned as I heard the students passing...
"They're evacuating my Dad's plant near Detroit...."
"Do you think something will happen here..."
"What about the Ren Cen..."
"I have family that work in the Trade Center..."
My eyes began to fill with tears as I realized, as well as I could at the moment, the true impact of what had happened. The World Trade Center was filled with thousands of workers each and every day....a plane crashing into that building...it had to be on purpose...but why...but who...
What is happening? I thought to myself.
Driving to the hospital to check on my father, my mind was filled with thoughts of him. Perhaps it is good he will not remember this day, I thought.
And as I drove towards Mt. Clemens, jets soaring and screaming above my head, I began to sob.
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